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Unexpecting

Unexpecting

By Ashley Bitterman

Unexpecting brings you real stories from families who have suffered pregnancy loss. Honest and raw, these conversations navigate the shock, trauma, and suffering that come with unexpected loss, while bringing comfort to those who feel alone in their circumstance and offering hope for the future.
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Moms Make The Best Decisions They Can For Their Children (Christine)

UnexpectingApr 18, 2022

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Moms Make The Best Decisions They Can For Their Children (Christine)

Moms Make The Best Decisions They Can For Their Children (Christine)

Christine has been pregnant 5 times in the past 4 years, but three of those pregnancies ended in a devastating loss. She tells her story while capturing real and honest emotions that come with pregnancy after loss, processing a loss, and parenting after loss. She shares her experience with her son Liam, who was diagnosed with irreparable illnesses in utero, making him incompatible with life and forcing Christine into a medical termination at 18 weeks.

Apr 18, 202254:26
The Brain Thinks, The Heart Feels (Jen Marr)
Apr 04, 202247:45
We Need To Find The Beauty In It (Courtney)

We Need To Find The Beauty In It (Courtney)

Courtney lost her son Luca at 23 weeks pregnant due to his life-threatening diagnoses of Spina Bifida and Hydrocephalus. Courtney's powerful outlook on her devastating experience is nothing short of inspiring. She talks through how she aimed to find the beauty throughout the trauma, and shares essential tips and resources for how to prepare for the immediate aftermath of a loss.

Mar 28, 202258:11
We Have To Have Faith (Annette)

We Have To Have Faith (Annette)

Annette details her harrowing history of recurring pregnancy loss. She relives the trauma of waking up from anesthesia after an emergency surgery to learn her baby had died and she'd lost her uterus. She talks about her resilience and how she hasn't given up on her journey to welcoming another baby into the world, which she hopes to pursue through surrogacy.

Mar 21, 202248:44
If You Don't Hope It's Going To Work, Then Why Are You Doing It? (Aaron)

If You Don't Hope It's Going To Work, Then Why Are You Doing It? (Aaron)

Aaron shares his journey with infertility and pregnancy loss, having experienced several failed embryo transfers with his wife after multiple IVF cycles. He discusses the gender inequity that's present and how he approached his role as the non-birthing partner to ensure his wife felt the support she needed, while also navigating his own emotions. Aaron expresses his disappointment with the current bar that's set for men and how he feels there's a great opportunity to improve.

Mar 14, 202251:44
You're Allowed To Have Feelings, Mom (Sky)

You're Allowed To Have Feelings, Mom (Sky)

Sky takes me through her history of recurring loss and details the trauma of losing her daughter, Lennox, to a medical termination in her second trimester, due to significant brain abnormalities. She talks about the importance of giving yourself a chance to grieve, and how she's channeled her grief into writing a book and hosting a support group to help others who have suffered from similar experiences.

Mar 07, 202254:01
I Can't Take Much More (Arielle)

I Can't Take Much More (Arielle)

Arielle has had to relive her nightmare time and time again. She and her husband are both carriers for a rare genetic disorder known as Tay Sachs, leading to a 25% chance that both of them would pass the gene down to their child which would cause the child to be incompatible with life. The odds, however, were not in their favor, as 75% of their pregnancies resulted in a baby with Tay Sachs and, ultimately, a medical termination. They turned to IVF to increase their chances of having a healthy baby, but that road hasn't been easy either, as Arielle has suffered two miscarriages after successful implantations. As she tries to make sense of the cruel, unfair hand she's been dealt, she's doing her best to show up as a mom to her healthy 3-year-old daughter while also trying to come to terms with the idea that her family of 3 that she hoped to continue to grow may actually be complete.

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Dec 13, 202101:22:08
I'm Tired. I'm So Very Tired. (Ash)

I'm Tired. I'm So Very Tired. (Ash)

Ash from Darwin, Australia has suffered 5 pregnancy losses in just two years. Two of these losses were due to partial molar pregnancies. The chance of experiencing a partial molar is just 1 in 1200, and the grim diagnosis can progress to become dangerous and cancerous. Ash and her partner are navigating the recurring grief while also showing up for their 4-year-old daughter, who yearns for a baby brother or sister. 

Dec 06, 202149:32
I Have to Believe That Things Will Get Better (Annie)

I Have to Believe That Things Will Get Better (Annie)

Annie relives the devastating heartbreak of experiencing back-to-back miscarriages. She identifies a major flaw in our education system that forces people to navigate pregnancy loss blindly, and talks about the psychological pressures that women face when preparing their bodies for gestation.

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Nov 29, 202152:60
Grief and Happiness Can Coexist (Jackie)

Grief and Happiness Can Coexist (Jackie)

Jackie shares her story of losing her son, Richard, during pre-term labor at nearly 35 weeks, due to a fetal maternal hemorrhage. She describes the unfortunate mishandling of her treatment and the shock and trauma of waking up from (non-consented) anesthesia to learn her baby had died. Jackie shares the beautiful and inspiring ways she honors Richard, and how she's channeling her energy into advocacy and giving a voice to others in similar situations.

Nov 22, 202101:00:52
That Might Have Been My Only Shot At Ever Having A Baby (Julia)

That Might Have Been My Only Shot At Ever Having A Baby (Julia)

Julia shares her history of suffering from multiple chronic illnesses and how they affect her ability to get pregnant and carry a baby. An unexpected pregnancy forced her into a medical termination, which she is trying her best to recover from, physically and emotionally, every day. We talk about the societal pressures of needing to be, or at least present as, "okay," and how the people around you can best show up for you after experiencing something so traumatic as pregnancy loss.

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Nov 15, 202150:19
The Most Beautiful Baby I Had Ever Seen (Laney)
Nov 15, 202156:46
I Guess I'm Not Pregnant (Leanna)

I Guess I'm Not Pregnant (Leanna)

Leanna, an ER pediatrician, talks about experiencing recurring miscarriages and how her medical professional insight helped her understand and cope with the devastating losses. After a fluke injury coincided with a missed miscarriage, she was forced to endure agonizing physical pain on top of the immense emotional pain she was already in. Leanna gives us all hope for the future, as she just welcomed her rainbow baby this July.

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Nov 01, 202132:37
He Looks Just Like Me (Lauren I.)
Oct 25, 202138:53
Episode 4 Preview (Lauren I)

Episode 4 Preview (Lauren I)

Preview: Lauren describes the nightmare moment when her husband walked in to see his newborn son and was horrified to see the medical staff performing CPR on his tiny, lifeless body.

Oct 22, 202100:23
She's With My Dad Now (Lauren)
Oct 18, 202155:57
Episode 3 Preview (Lauren)

Episode 3 Preview (Lauren)

Preview: Lauren recounts the moment she discovered she may be too far along to terminate her high-risk, unhealthy pregnancy.

Oct 15, 202100:44
There Was No Heartbeat (Dee)
Oct 11, 202136:53
I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant (Stasia)
Oct 04, 202131:14
Episode 1 Preview (Stasia)

Episode 1 Preview (Stasia)

Stasia recalls the harrowing memory of delivering a stillborn baby after not even knowing she was pregnant.

Sep 30, 202100:19
Unexpecting Trailer

Unexpecting Trailer

Hi. I'm Ashley. I had an abortion on June 21, 2021. I started Unexpecting to create a safe place for people to share their stories of pregnancy loss. My hope is to bring a sense of comfort to those who feel alone in this undeserved place of suffering, and to shine a light on the hope for the future.

Sep 18, 202101:02